FOUR children. I'm still struck with disbelief every once in awhile that I have FOUR children. Mike and I have always talked about having four children. That's always been the "goal." But to have them all actually here. Wow. To see them, to know their names, to watch them grow and become. Again, Wow.

All of the sudden the house seems full, busy, chaotic even at times. :) Truly, it never felt this way before. It always felt like we were waiting for last one. Now that he's here, we are complete!

These last four weeks have been a roller coaster, but I expected nothing less. At times I wonder if I can handle it. Other times I'm almost in tears thinking about how the "dream" has come true.

The times when I wonder if I'm actually capable are the mornings. Why are those the hardest?! Usually I'm coming off a night of the less than restful sleep/no sleep, I'm trying to get kids dressed and fed while pacifying a hungry/cranky/ dirty diaper baby. The other hard times are when Caleb is awake.

He doesn't know what to do with himself. So all he really wants to do it nurse and look around. He even cries at me when he's using me as a human pacifier and some milk shows up on the scene. He's not hungry, just wants his Mama Nuk.

I'm enjoying these days. I think I'm going into this infancy with, hopefully, a little more wisdom. I know this part doesn't last forever. I've been through worse infancies (read, Lilia!). And I'm just so over-the-moon thankful to not be pregnant and to not have to be pregnant ever again that I'm riding high on those endorphins. Gotta love post pregnancy hormones.
Anyway, here is my brood, all four of my Wolfe Cubs, Praise be to the Lord God up above through whom all blessing and mercies flow. I feel almost embarrased by how lavishly the Lord has blessed me with these children. He even said "yes" to my prayers of 2 boys, 2 girls, 2 dark, 2 light. See how lavishly I am blessed! Thank you, my Lord.
(Here's the 5th Wolfe Cub. :) She goes everywhere with us and her clothes cost just as much as everyone elses.)